First of all I have to say that a lot has changed since I last used the wordpress admin panel and wordpress.com. And the way that things are now it is a pain in the ass. It seems that I have to re-learn everything again. I just wanted to quickly get to writing my first post and now I have spent 30 minutes helplessly clicking forth and back to get just the basic structure and design set-up.
Well I guess that is just another example of how our own expectations can trip us up. Especially when we have a sense of urgency (for whatever reason) and therefor are unwilling to take the time to adapt to changing circumstances. Well in this case I was lucky and made it through the clicking-jungle, but this could have easily end up in me putting aside the whole blogging idea for now, because stupid wordpress.com has changed its admin UI to a degree I cannot simply just jump in. Let’s thank the powers at play for now, that this did not happen 🙂
This blog is not supposed to be ONLY a tool for me to vent and share, but really primarily should serve the purpose of supporting people in healing their mental health issues. I want people who read on my blog to really take something away for themselves. I want to support them in their healing process.
Fact is though that the term “mental health” contains a great variety of problems and issues. Which logically means, that what I have to give – coming from my specific mental health circumstances – will only serve some of the people who struggle with mental health. It is important to keep this awareness of the limitations of my healing methods and process in mind, when writing on this blog. Because what I certainly don’t want is that people who are struggling already will feel at fault if what I have to suggest does not help them. It is not because they haven’t tried hard enough or because there is something inherently wrong and unhealable with them, but that simply this specific method does not work for them. It’s a question of incompatibility. The problems they have and the complexity of who they are is not served by what I have to give.
One of the core issues I will focus on first in this blog is sleep. Since sleep is such a crucial factor in my mental health. And from what I have observed in others, this holds true almost everyone. For most people lack of good sleep automatically leads to a worsening of their mental health. And I want to not only focus on how to have a better sleep, but also on how to manage the day better with an unfortunate lack of sleep in regards to healing and to a sustainable performing throughout the day.
There will certainly be days when my posts will devolve into an unstructured ranting/venting style. Because on my bad days, this will be the best I can come up with. And I am intentionally making the choice to still post on the bad days for several reasons:
- My own sense of continuity and commitment. I want the blog to be a continious thing, that I feel committed to.
- I want others to have a transparent insight into how I am when I am not well. I believe that mental health issues can only be understood in the abstract to some degree, to really understand how things are like, you need to be as close to the action as possible. Having me vent on my bad days, will be a valuable insight for my readers.
- By posting on these bad days, I kind of want to say to them: Look here, this might not be the greatest, most polished aspect of who I am – but this is still me and I am ok with that. It is a little contribution in overcoming the stigma of it all. A contribution on overcoming shame.
Personal Mental Health Recovery 