So many smart thoughts in my head and too little energy to put them into any coherent order to post. So I am not even going to try. Again, I am struggling with an extreme lack of sleep. But the good thing today is, that the effect is mainly physical only. I feel as if I have ingested lead, but emotionally I feel still quite positive. Which is kind of rare, since usually mind and body do influence each other quite a lot of course. I have also been quite active again so far. Despite a two hour gap earlier, where I just couldnt move from exhaustion. Luckily most of the heavy physical stuff is out of the way: 30 minutes physical exercise, a walk through the forest, cleaning my apartment. That is all done. Also, besides this blog, I am not really expected to be smart anymore today. The only “challenging” task left is going shopping and driving the car. I will try to drink quite some water before I leave in one hour. Maybe also do the shaking exercise by Ann Marie Chiasonn. Unfortunately it is too late in the day to drink green tea. And I already had a cup. More than one cup is dangerous for me, as this usually ends up in me having a panic attack. Maybe I will have a little rest also before I leave.
[EDIT] This post is a good example of how I am navigating/adapting my daily practice on days where I am challenged to some degree, but am not at the red stage of dysregulation yet. On those days I find the practices of Morning Pages/Intentional writing and Free Speaking particularly helpful as they allow for an honest check-in with myself, and protect me from trying to live up to a too rigid schedule for the day (and then failing).
Personal Mental Health Recovery 